I relinquish control

Deadlift 3-3-3-3-3 reps

Oy, so much to say. I was definitely hard on myself last night for not at least getting to my prior 3RM. Well, actually I don't have a 3RM DL, but I do have a 5RM DL of 175#.

It's the realization that I have lost a measurable amount of strength since I started the Whole30 AND stopping the Post WOD shake. Those are the 2 big changes that have happened since April, where I was setting PRs left and right. Then it just stopped. 2 weeks ago I could barely eeek out a 105# backsquat.  I have isolated that while I'm eating a better composition of foods, I'm definitely not eating enough calories to maintain the extremely active lifestyle I'm living. I train 5 days a week, I coach 4 days a week, not to mention the random yoga, gymnastic, dancing into the wee morning hours activities that I do randomly, yet, regular basis. 

I plan to attend Crossfit 201 this week and get my head straight about what my food regiment should be. 

I know I don't eat enough. I usually have a 3 egg scramble with veggies and a piece of fruit... LUnch could vary... sometimes I skip and just have a small snack. Dinner after I get home, usually after 9pm, is a meat and veggie stir fry, and of recent I usually eat half an avocado with any meal I have at home--- never when I eat out. 

I need to reassess my goals, then devise a plan. All I know is that, why I love the gains I've made by eating clean (strict pull up, sub 10min Annie, PR on Fran, feeling good during met-cons, weight loss...) I'm kinda psyched out about loosing strength. I think I finally have to admit that I really need to be eating like an athlete. I would just never think me an athlete. 

So I got back Post WOD shake as of last night. Eddie also thinks that I probably lost strength because I wasn't recovering fully. When I removed the shake from my regiment, I never replaced that protein nor all the nutritional elements that came in the shake with anything... As in, I would do the WOD, and not eat anything. Obviously, my body was depleted and I never replaced the fuel I burned, and my muscles were tore up and since they were not being replenished they probably didn't recover and possibly this is where the atrophy or loss of mass could have taken place. 

So, while I've enjoyed leaning out and the aesthetic of seeing muscle definition, it not worth loosing mass or strength. 

Ahhh, what a long post.

Oh, and I used my new Oly Shoes for the first time with this wod.