Filthy Fifty

"Filthy Fifty"

For time:

50 Box jump, 18 inch box

50 Jumping pull-ups

50 Kettlebell swings 26#s

50 Walking Lunge steps

50 Knees to elbows

50 Push press, 30 pounds

50 Back extensions

50 Wall ball shots (8#s)

50 Burpees

50 Double unders or 200 Singles

My time: 46:19

Earlier in the day, before the workout, I made a goal that I wanted to finish in 45 minutes or less. Well, I didn't meet my goal, so I am a little bit bummed. But I don't want to take away from the fact that I did all the work. There were options to scale back to "Sport Forty" or "Dirty Thirty" so I should be proud that I did the prescribed number of reps. 

Woke up this morning (and I had a headache... name that tune) and went to the scale: 106.6lbs. Last night, Matty was actually training, and he asked why I'm weighing myself and that I really shouldn't on Paleo. Deep down I know it shouldn't matter, but I'm so fixated on being a certain weight. I seriously want to be 100#s lean, with 20% body fat; that would make me satisfied. I still have love handles and my thighs have a gelatinous layer on them. I want all that gone. Oh, how I took for granted the early 20s when I thought I was FAT and would complain about it... Slanted self-perception is a bitch. 

This past Friday was Sondra's birthday dinner, and at the bequest of the birthday girl, all the ladies had to dress like sluts. I was at a loss of what to wear.  Going out to buy an outfit that I would wear for 4 hours was out of the question. I didn't immediately think of my skinny clothes, the clothes I use to wear, 6-7-8 years ago, just cause I didn't think I could fit into them. But on a whim, I decided to try on a short-short skirt I bought from Benneton in '03, and bustier top from '01. And ta-dah! They both fit me well. Of course, I don't really dress that way anymore, so I felt a bit self conscious. The skirt was maybe 3 inches below my hoo-ha, and the top kept riding up all night; constant readjustment was necessary. I thought it was pretty cool that I could fit into those old clothes. So that is what keeps me wanting to loose more weight. I want to feel good in the clothes I use look good in. 

My forthcoming birthday is making me grasp onto my youth :)  

What did I eat?

Turkey patty and balsamic glazed shitake mushrooms

Side salad

Miso marinated Black Cod

Orange

That's it. I know I should eat more.